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Sun, 18 Dec 2005 00:39:20 GMT

hah! nevermind!

Back from not posting in a while.

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 05:57:14 GMT

well, I've decided to start posting again. i started a private journal, but it just wasn't the same as teh LJ. so here i am, with what little friends on my friend's list, and a whole bunch of new stuff on the site that i have to get acquainted with. and for those of you that don't like bad spelling i am now going to start spell checking my stuff.

okay, let's get to a-catching up...

I'm obviously in a new school now. ponderosa high is the name.
it's no Tech i knew no one when i got there (as a seignior mind you) and the computers there all still have 98 and crash every time you attempt to run two paints. literally paint has crashed on me like 5 times using the school computers.
and it's no napa either. I'm in chamber in this new choir and i miss the napa high choir sooooooooo bad. Travis just guess directed our district choral festival, and you never know you loved something until it goes away.
er.. i mean napa high choir. i don't have a thing for my old choir director. it's just my new one is crap (no offense to her).
The last year of high school has gone by very fast. already i'm halfway from getting my diploma with almost perfect strangers (mostly).
i have made a million new friends at pondo, and they are shaping up to be good ones too.
My walk with God has been going good two. i'm just now learning what it means to really surrender to what God wants in my life. Even though i have no idea what i am going to do for a living when i get out of high school. i know if i keep focusing on Him, and serving Him, I'll be alright.
i'm off.

i have to get a good nights sleep before finals tomorrow.

ew

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 00:56:21 GMT

you know what's pretty funny. watching guys walk out of the restroom you are in witout washing there hands. they just go and then walk out. not even a glance at the sink.

apocolypse please

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 05:14:28 GMT

i turn 18 in less than a month, and i feel less like a man than i did a year ago. this is my last year of highschool, and i'm not even with my friends that i thought i would have in my last year.

this is fine though. God is bigger than all of my little inconveniences. and closer than any friends i could ever hope to have.

i've just reaslized how much i have changed. it was all to impress or conform to a social group. i always do that. why? why can't i just be me in the purest sense? i should be just me.

Absolution

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 19:35:02 GMT

Woah, i was just hit by like 5 things that suck.

but i don't want to talk about it right now.

...well it just feels like i'm being steped one, not by anyone in particular. just a whole bunch of sercumstances in my life rigth now.

i hate this

this past week...

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 19:46:34 GMT

well this past week has been fun. i went to 3 pool partys, including one with no pool. i did this thing called revamp. it is a sort of band camp thing for the youth music ministry thing. we played music for 7 hours a day. it was awsome. exept for the part of baby-siting this novice player that had alot of trouble getting anything down, but what better way to learn than teaching? over all i learned alot about musicianship.

i also had to babysit a neihbors house + the cat from freakin' hell! the first day it was fine. but the second day was crazy. i tyhought i was going to die, or at least loose a limb to that cat.

now for my deep thought:

ever wonder why you delay goping to the bathroom while playing video games, even though you can pause it at any time.

Hmmmm...

~J05|-|Y \/\/@5|-|Y~

hide away.

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 08:41:42 GMT

yay everyone is going to come up and visit around the 11th of auguss. i still ahvn't figured out what show we are going to see, and what else we are going to do, but i'm shure i/we will figure out something. by we i mean taby, adam, and mitch. it will be a barrle of fun, and a boat load of monkeys.

can't wait.

i cut my hair

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 01:18:43 GMT

yeah

:(

From a distant shore, well not realy a shore.

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 04:53:56 GMT

Mitch and Adam might come up and visit next week. YAY! At least I have some riends that care about me enough to come and visit when I'm here all alone all day. I'm not implying anything of coarse...

Anywho! I was forced to go to work with my dad today. He asked me last night, then told me I have to go. yeah. It isn't that bad realy because I make good money working with my dad. so far he ows me 370 bucks.
I'm rolling in dues yet to be paid. *roll roll* But i have to be carefull not to ask to barrow 20 bucks here, or 5 bucks there. He will deduct from that what he owes me. Even my mom will do it to me. I remember she owed me 300 bucks for some strange reason, then after 2 months of "asking for stuff" it desolved into $135. waoh.

Everything else is cool though. I can sleep better, and Im working out again. This is to atleast get a walking start to prepare for the adult hockey division in september (which is the same month i turn 18) and I have not put on my skates in a whole year. I might be a little out of shape ^_^.

now i will proceede to complete my famed "100 randome facts about me" trillogy in:

100 Randome Facts About Me: the resurection

84.i'm very introverted, it migth not seem that way some of the time, some times it does.
85.i hate not being able to say stuff.
86.i can safely say incubus is my favorite band.
87.wih girls, i'm hopeless
88.i hate reality shows, they should slip on a banana peal!
89.i love old t-shirts especialy the ones with holes in them
90.i don't realy care that ony 3 people read this, it's 3 more if i didn't have such good friends you know who you are ^_^
91.i have incoherant dreams. they just don't make sence.
92.i realy don't know just how sexy i am. seriousely.
93.the salted for firefox theme is t3h best!
94.moving is the devil
95.i play bass.(i don't think i said that, so i't randome)
96.i post on nageq.com, i'm the one with the worst typing and speling skills. lol
97.i don't realy like cheese sll that much.
98.i have all but 1 one of incubus' records. s.c.i.e.n.c.e. it's the best one though
99.<3 hansen's soda, even though it doesn't have real juice in it.
100.some times people don't get me, but the ones that do turn oyut to be great friends.

what a heartwarming end to the saga. *tear*

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tihs sucks

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 03:10:57 GMT

i hate not having any friends up here. i can't wait till school starts. at least then i won't be stuck with my frigin' mom all day! i hate it. once i get my license (in about a month) i'm going to take every excuse, every little reason to get out of the house and go some where without my f*cking mom! i was just starting to have regular friends in napa. then we move and i have to start working myself into a group, hoping they don't think i'm a leech in the prosses. but it's no use, next year i graduate. some times my only friend is my music.

i need a new hat. my old straw one is too small because i droped it in a lake last year.

i started a msn mesenger/windows mesenger thingy account, so if any of the three of you that read this has an account, comment with the email addres used for it.

-_-

~J05|-|Y \/\/@5|-|Y~

<--- no-sunburn king

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 19:41:27 GMT

yeah yesterday i went to the warped tour with the youth music administrator to my new youth group. he called me yesterday at about 11:23, and asked me if i enjoyed music, then if i wanted to go to the warped tour with him. out of nowhere! we go there about 2 so we had missed like 4 bands. but i skanked, moshed, and threw my fist up like they were al simaltaniousely going out of style. but one word of advice for anyone going to an all day concert thing. NEVER get totaly wet right at the begining. why? because of the demon chafing! yeah i could not walk right by the time i got home. other than that i t was awsome. i realy needed somthing like this to boost my spirits.

i think i got a little bit of a blck eye during atreu though.

~J05|-|Y \/\/@5|-|Y~

woah~!

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 06:41:27 GMT

i hate the stuff i write. i keep finding myself staring at the wall for no reason. today it took me about 5 miunets to stop my eyes fromfalling out of my head. i feel like one of those musical eag shakersa, and the way they sound.
i keep doing things i hate to do. like get so mad i could punch a hole in the wall, amongst other things.
i have these huge bags under my eyes. i guess it's from not sleeping. i'm slowly turning into a insomniac.
i finaly registered to get my new xbox powere cord to get rid of the fire hazerd one. even though i never had a roblem with it in all it's faithul years of gaming servis. not even a burn mark on the carpet. i haven't realy played recently for hours on end though. i need to get fable, then i will need the new power cord. i've bien playing WoW way too much.

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evreyone hates me

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 06:52:51 GMT

yeah.

i would like t know who reads this, so please comment.

i'm aiming for more than 3 posts.

sigh*

RAR!

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 23:57:25 GMT

i totaly woke up on the wrong side of the bed toady. i don't want to do anything. not even WoW.

ive geberaly bein feeling down a little since moving, cnanging schools, missing friends, and breaking up with my girlfriend of 5 months. yeaterday my mom was a little extra on my case because she was stressed out, then after she got most of the steam out of her system, she said: "you know, considering the sercomstances, you are doing pretty good." she's right i guess. most kids i know that moved usualy shut themselves in a room for the better part of the ordeal. but i'm just a little EMo today. that's all.

it's done...

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 05:21:54 GMT

well i finally got all my pent up guilt out of my system.

i broke up with Juile. the truth is that i don't love her. i kept lying to myself and to her for so long.

but everythings ok, and it went down with out a problem, she took it well.

i feel so horrible though!

no matter.

what am i supposed to do?

false alarm

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 06:30:50 GMT

nope we are still together, just a little bump in the road, but know we are on track.

learning to breath

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 07:30:23 GMT

this is a genuin moment:

with my innocence lost and gained, and lost, and gained again,
i ask God wat way is down, andtry to go the opposite.
the trouble is with all this confusion,
and the wanting for it to work is like breathing.
you need air, but you also have to let it go.
i have no idea what i'm tring to say but all i know is that God will ceep me straight on the path, and the same with her. keep your eyes on him and you wont step on sinking water.

1 is the loniest number...

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 19:28:13 GMT

i have alot to write about so let's get started.

the most important change is the one made in the area of my current residence. yes, you guesed it, i moved on saturday. i no longer live in the dunken-tourist laiden waist land i used to call home. i have always hated napa, but i love the friends that i'm leaving behind. yes, my area code is no longer 707, but 530.

i had my "last" youthgroup on thursday, and i had no surprises, no special goodbye, no cake (like jimy got when he left) just a: "this is possibly josh's last time at youth-group, so if you have any seacret crushes, now is the time to let him know." and that's it. we did play a game of ultamate frisbie for the game before we went in so that was nice.

who am i kidding? of coarse people wil miss me. i'm just complaining.

well i'll se you guys later. bye

updatezilla

Sun, 29 May 2005 05:42:13 GMT

rofl rofl rofl

baja blast

Sun, 29 May 2005 05:40:51 GMT

= EEEEEW

saturated day

Sat, 28 May 2005 06:54:52 GMT

well school was very boring. we sat aruond all day just waiting to talk for like 5 miunets about ower tech lends a hand thingys. needles to say about that, i moved rocks, dirt and other variouse earthen-matter.
after school i went to go eath taco bell with Andrew and Jos. it was fun. we talked about Ried, baja blast, and my tech lends a hand thing. after that i weat over to Julies and hung out, after that i went to the chef's market,
gtg bye

a lot goin' on...

Mon, 23 May 2005 01:26:20 GMT

so much is changing. i'm moving, i'm going to be a siengior, and i now have had a girlfriend for almost 4 months.

on other news:
i drove all the way to safe way and all the way back to get some stuff for my mom. surprisingly i didn't kill anyone;) oh and i got some pomagranate juice for myself. Mmmmmh.
~juice~
it's good stuff.

any way i just thought i would get in a update because i haven't in a wile.
bye

prom update ... soon

Tue, 17 May 2005 00:54:18 GMT

i'll update with prom pics in a couple of days

avatar of the moment

Mon, 16 May 2005 05:56:40 GMT

something i just threw together to play with the brushes in gimp.

i'll fix it later and show you guys.
♫peace♫

long over-due

Fri, 06 May 2005 00:05:57 GMT

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that was just for fun.

any way, life has bien swell, except for failing american studies. i "pretty much have to get close to full credit on everything from here on out to pass the class" according to Pollack. pluss i have two websites over due, and on top of that i need to start utiliving the vast ammounts of frre time i have in digital media to finish my portfoloio web-site thingy.

God i hate the Oprah show. i must destroy it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111
i hate the way when she has a guest on, and he/she is talking, then out of nowhere Oprah comes up with a little quip and put the whole audience into a laghing histaria. it makes me si...*barf!!!!!*

...ck

do you belive the story about the run-away-bride? why would she run away without even leaving a note? of coarse they would think she was kidknaped. sigh... and he still wants to marry her.

good guy

so i got my new ipod after the other one brocke
♫:D♫

stay tuned for :
J05|-|y \/\/@5|-|y's deep thought...